fuck me, that explains it all

Super props to http://www.kittenandsnake.net - I think she/he's been reading my diary dammit....

stuff n things

I wish I had pretty words for how fucking bored I am with the usual bullshit that's going on in my life. Apart from just about to become a murderer ala the last post I'm so fucking tired.

Tired of:

a) being single and being penalised for it thanks to the govts $10 billion revitalisation plan which is penalising me for being a singleton with no kids or having anyone to care for by not giving me $1000.

b) the same old tired fucking bullshit at work over and over and over and over and over and over again. I'm surprised at myself that I've managed to put up with it so far

c) being tired. Whoever said sleep is overrated needs a trip in my world because I'm so fucking tired and I'm sure everything would look so much more rosier if I'd had another 5 hours sleep.

d) my addictive personality but I guess that's a topic for another time but (expletive deleted) I wish I could get myself under control.

e) being childless, yep I want to have my son already. I'm ready, just have to find my huband/sperm donor already. I'm just about to turn 34 and my deadline for having kids was 35 so tick tock... I will have a kid whether it's by sperm donor (willing or unwilling) by the time I'm 35 but I'm old fashioned in that I would rather it be by the father I'd like to stay with rather than a "donor". Either way I'm not missing out but fuck I'm impatient and wish I'd meet him already because I'm itching to have my son in a big way.

So all in all the usual bullshit, but it adds up to the usual equation - I am bored and lonely. Meh.