Life, the universe and everything

Poor neglected blog, I do still love you, really I do. It's stoopid real life getting in the way again. How rude huh? Work is insane as usual, more topsy turvy than usual and getting a little annoying quite frankly. I thought that the last 6 months were pretty unsettled but it looks like the bumpy ride isn't over yet. I'm half tempted to pack it all in and find a new job but I don't like to quit when the going gets hard so I'm sticking with it. Just need to have some fricken patience.... patience grasshopper....

It's been a weird sort of weekend. Started off by having a dream that Benji came back from Abu Dhabi to tell me that he'd realised that he was madly in love with me (hellooo subconscious) and then there was a whole bunch of snogging so that put me in a melancholy mood...

I've spent the weekend clearing out the stuff in my spare room. I generally clean the house and dump any stuff I dunno what to do with in there so periodically it needs a good sorting out. I want to turn it in to an organised office but I think I'm going to need a mini dumpster to clear out the junk. What can I say, I'm a hoarder... Anyway when I was clearing out a box of papers I came across a few letters I'd kept from my grandparents (my dad's parents). I don't have any grandparents left and due to the nature of my upbringing I never really got to spend a lot of time with either set, much to my dismay. I always wanted the golden story book relationship with my grandparents full of baking goodies together, doing crafts and gardening together etc but unfortunately that was never for me.

Anyway two of the handwritten letters from my Grandpa just made me howl with loss. He died over 10 years ago and I regret to say it but he was always my favourite. Such a kind, good man - a true gentleman. Anyway the two letters I'm going to share with you are ones he sent to me when my parents broke up when I was 17 and then on my 18th birthday (which seems a millenium ago).

My Dear TG

I am very saddened by the separation of your Mum and Dad and it must be doublely so for you.

I feel sure that your Mum and Dad will always love you and will watch with interest your achievements, on your journey through life, and give assistance and advice when you ask.

I wish you well and will do my best to comfort, and give you help, when it is needed, as you are a dear granddaughter, those two words have a sincere meaning.

Lots of best love to a very dear person. I love you.

Grandpop. x x x


My Dear TG

The great day has come and you are now entitled to make decisions as to how you intend to conduct your life.

I congratulate you on reaching the age of eighteen, and do wish you well, but would like to point out to you that there are going to be many ups and downs as you journey through the "hurly burly" we call life. The main two people who will be following your progress and be willing to give if you ask for help, are Mum and Dad. So go ahead with dignity and honesty but full of confidence to a great experiance.

Good Travelling.

I will be following your progress with keen interest.

Much love to a very dear and special granddaughter.

love Grandpop x x x


It's funny because I've been missing him a lot recently but finding these letters again reminds me that he's watching over me as are all my Grandparents. Not really sure why I wanted to share all that with you but there it is anyway.

And so as not to leave you on a sad note, I've been bargain hunting again, the Alex Liddy dinnerset I've had my eye on for just about ages was on special (half price yeah!) this weekend so I splashed out. I looove it!


Have a great week!

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A is for Awesome

Today I reached one of my weight milestones (heheh typoed miletonnes). I've cracked a number that I never thought I'd make. The last time I was this weight was about 6 maybe 7 years ago. You know I'm still waiting for the hard part to kick in... It's been so easy so far and the weight has just been melting off. 30kgs so far... still a little bit more to go but I feel so awesome at the moment. Absolutely LOVING the compliments and double takes I've been getting which is odd because I'm never really been able to take compliments well. Guess it's one of the lessons on this journey. Definately rediscovering my inner hottie. I thought she'd gone forever but she was just hidden under those layers of blubber. Look good, feel good. In fact I actually feel attractive.

I won a Lost season 1 and 2 boxed set in a competition - Awesome!! Have I mentioned how much I love that show ;} Mmmmm Sawyery goodness.

My birthday is sorta round the corner and it's quite possible that I won't be spending it alone...... I don't want to jinx m'self but it looks like there is a very nice man on the horizon. Tall AND cute... and waving at me! Can you believe that shit? Awesome!

And I found the below pic while googlaying a pic for awesome... and it's pretty awesome so just thought I'd leave you with it to sum up the awesomeness that is today.